Lesson

you know,letting go isn't that easy for someone to feel it,to do it,especially to experience it.
but sometimes,there's a thing that all people can't maintain to be theirs forever,that's why each learn to let go of.
to be honest.i can't stand it.really.
what's the point of letting go?and if i should but couldn't...
come to think if i had a strenght what kind of strenght i would use,say,it would be strength to turning back time.so that i could fix any mistake i've made.but against it all,human would be perfect without any mistake ,regrets and they gotta will never learns something from life.
i've learned,i've experienced it all,even just once it'd so hard and even i can't holding back my tears,how silly.
my friends said i'm so unusual and they said i've changed from someone that have a lot of joy and careless to be someone that try hardest to built up strenght.
i don't want to,i really don't want to be a weak girl,a weak person that everyone would know i've sacraficed.
what's the point of having everyone have eyes one me,looking at me with that sad and mourn feeling.
i've come to think ,it's gonna be a very good lesson that everyone makes mistake,incluiding me.
being strong isn't that instant,being hurt once isn't enough.
In order to become strong and to find what truly belongs to you, there will be a process you must overcome.
after you're strong enough,there,would be harder than before on order to make you stronger.
and i....will be become a strong person,because of lesson that i've experienced.
painful,hardness,even smiling is so hard for you.
even you had to wear a big mask on your face,heavy also.