Thursday, October 29, 2015


so you can keep me 
inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
holding me closer till our eyes meet
you wont ever be alone
and if you hurt me
that's okay baby only words bleed
inside these pages you just hold me
and i wont ever let you go
you can fit me
inside the necklace you got when you're 16
next to your heartbeat where I should be
keep it deep within your soul

Sunday, October 18, 2015

WKWKWK

HAE GAES

gila ya post gua bawah bawah berat banget kaya semacem over depressed gitu. 
iya sih emg lagi sedih, but I'm not in the mood to kill myself over few silly things that succeed turn over my happiness into calamity. 

keliatannya kaya mau bundir gitu kata-katanya.

nope. im still feeling as good to continue being a potato.
kalo ada yang penasaran gimana college life 

ya bisa dibilang happy" aja, temennya baik" and not going to tell lies, seru", walopun gua merasa banyak dari mereka yang wearing mask. everyday. every hour every minute and every second. lama-lama gua jadi lebih ngerti dunia industri sedikit-sedikit, tentang pressure nya dan gua sedikit banyak udah dapet banyak gambaran.

anyway, gua tambah gendut. ya. kerjaan gua selain pergi makan, ato numpang tidur di kosan temen, bikin berat gua tambah. lebih begonya lagi, gua malah jadi suka gadoin butter kalo pas kelas kicthen ato pastry. 
oiya,  walopun gua merasa agak sedikit ga nyaman sama beberapa hal, misalnya kelompok table masak dll, tapi gua lebih bisa endure walau kadang kelepasan gua bete trus keliatan di muka gitu, ( im not an expert in hiding emotions ) tapi kebanyakan dari mereka care, dan gua bersyukur untuk itu, really. I'm Blessed.

setidaknya ada 4-5 orang yang bener-bener gua cherished so much. feels like we've known like forever,
gua juga jadi salah satu anggota organisasi ukm di kuliahan, yang berhubungan dengan bartending, dan ya...its going better than the first time I'm in. some thing changes of course, tapi mungkin thats the price.

belom lama ini gua juga ikut english debate competition, sebagai peserta dari kampus di kampus mercu buana, ngelawan kampus-kampus lingkungan kopertis 3 such as binus inter,atma,untar,UI dll.exciting sih tapi ya bener-bener bikin worry, pertama kalinya gua harus debate diliatin orang-orang gitu and its a strange feeling you got there. nervous sama lebih ga percaya diri. karena kebanyakan pesertanya juga uda lebih pengalaman. anyway ga jelek' banget lah hasilnya as a beginner we got 12th place dari 48 university. I'm glad.

hmm sebenernya banyak yang mau gua ceritain dan ga akan abis satu post kalo gua ceritain satu-satu. my precious memory and experiences that i got so far. tapi kayaknya untuk hari ini cukup ini aja. lain waktu I'm definitely going to post another story


I'm more than you think

Her wings Once So White.
She was once so light.
She made the sky shine.
She met a strange guy and fell in love.
He made her believe lies to steal her light.
Now she sits alone in the dark.
Tears fill her eyes.
She sits alone crying as sorrow consumes her.
Her wings now dark.
She is now so grey.
She no longer has her light.
The sky around her is slowly falling.
For now she is a Fallen Angel.... That weeps of a broken heart

They call me fallen,
My wings are all I have left of me now.


wings torn for making a forbidden choice,
but truly, they are-
ethereal wisps
fading like the morning fog.
Bitter laughter stains my lips-
human life is so much better
because they take comfort in the
fleeting illusions of rights and wrongs
and judging the sides of the coin

My halo,now bent
Is lieing on the heavenly ground.
My heavenly dress,
Is covered in blood.
my eyes  are as dark as night.
As i begin to frown,
I cant help,but wonder
how my peaceful life,
was turned upside down.
I'm more fragile than you think
I'm more unstable than you think
I've lived a heavy life more than you think
I'm broken, more severe than you think I am.