there's a saying " ask, Then you'll get what you ask for"

but I don't think that kind of saying applies to me.
I ask, but I get nothing
I pray, but the prayers get no reply nor answered
and I wonder why
am I really worth living ?

everyone get at least their way opened up but why mine doesn't ?

I keep on feeling this disgusted feeling being rejected, as a failure. nothing goes right for me.
and I wonder,
am I really being loved, God ? Is this really the right thing for me ?
because i don't feel like it is. 

If You Would

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Am I In Love

I'm sinking faster and faster

Between heaven and disaster

Sorry for making you feel like I'm standing on the borderline

Am I in love with you...?

Or am I in love with the feeling?

Trying to find the truth

Sometimes the heart is deceiving

Can't get out of my head, I need you to save me

If I ever lose you, know that maybe I'm crazy

In love with you, am I in love with you?

Or am I in love with the feeling?